A confused state of mind.

It is so easy to be confused..I think that is the natural state with some people. Take on many things at a time, and be confused.

Multitasking is something I cannot do and even if I try, I fail miserably. I have seen people do umpteen number of things ...god knows how their mind deciphers each job and puts them in the correct file in the brain.

Mine gets jammed very soon..so i dont even try.

But all said and done, I feel I am a failure in today's world, when the need of the hour is doing today's work yesterday, and how else but multitasking will help achieve such high expectations.

A strong rock but a helpless mother today!!

She has been always like this...a little too sensitive health wise...A perfect life otherwise.
She has been sick many times in life and I was the life guard that she held on to...Like a strong rock I used to be around her to be her support.

Today as I write this I feel helpless...she is lying in the hospital and the so called rock is away in another corner...She is well looked after, but what about me????Today broke another misconception I had about myself. I feel I am needed, by them but the reverse is more than true i guess...I need the support of my supporting them for my survival...

I have to learn to live..I taught them to be alone, but failed to learn the lesson myself...what an irony...So life teaches these simple lessons for our own good..
I had mine today...

I am the same as my mother...I know now

Mom stays with us girls...in turn...and everytime she comes to one place, we crib about her planning menus...she wants to know in advance about the menu..and the busy life that we lead, gives us less time to think about such mundane things...we used to wonder..why is it so important to plan a menu so much in advance....so it went on and on..and she never changed...and had her way..

The wheel of time turned and I became a mother in law myself...i visited my daughter in her married home..
One day I heard from my friend that she was visiting me with her husband in the weekend which was a good 5-6 days away.
I asked my daughter what was the menu for the weekend, thinking I can buy the things and be ready.

I was shocked when she told me....ma ...u are just like grandma...
It set me thinking...and I found to my dismay that she was right...

I HAD A NEW RESPECT FOR MY MOTHER SINCE THEN...

My glass is half full.....

For every coin there are two sides...heads or tail...so also in life...there are two ways of looking at things.

There is always a positive way ..like a glass half full...rather than a glass half empty..

I had the company of my husband in my life for 15 years...i would say...god was kind enough to give me 15 years of bliss..and not less.He left when his time was up and my train moved on.

The Kids are grown now and are in the crossroads of their life, when change brings worry and failure brings fear in their minds...At every turn they find me with something positive to say and suddenly they see things differently...

I find that...slowly this is becoming a habit with them...to see things differently , positively...

I guess, the glasses that were half emply have been filled in half now....

Singly content....

The togetherness, we shared in the month we three were around each other, filled so many voids,I set the birds free when I returned...
It feels great, even being alone...The loved ones far away and near,care for you no matter where.. Beyond time and space there is a bond, that keeps the beads around the thread intact..

A Visit to the Big Apple

A traveller, with no choice, was my status during the time I left home for a period of precisely 33 days..Everything happens, if you just let it be.
I didnt will it...

I had a feeling of deja vu most of the time. May be in my dreams, in an awakened state or not, i had seen the visions that greeted my eyes. I feasted my eyes on the fare spread before me and considered myself lucky.

I feel, in life we have to be smart, i.e do things without thinking too much, or think too far into it.
Most of the time,gambles pay this way.Instinct plays a big role in this. You may not do certain things if you think too much. On first thought something may seem right, then other things play a role and you change your decision.
I never let second thoughts come in the way of action. And so far it has paid rich dividents...

I came back, fully refreshed, ready to hit the routine with a spring in my step and a song on my lips.I felt blessed.

I feel sated and I go about doing my job with ease...
I wish the same happiness to everyone who seek the same. I got it free, and wish the same for all.